I had a hospital appointment this morning. I have MS and although I am really well, every now and then I have an appointment to discuss my ongoing symptoms. However well I am doing attending an appointment usually throws me. There was nothing new to discuss and no big concerns but just talking through it all made me emotional.
We all like our bodies to be in good working order and day to day I feel pretty happy with mine. Even so, when you are forced to discuss the problems you do have it can be hard. Normally my days pass without me really thinking about MS. Being put in the situation where it is the focus never fails to stir up some upset in me.
My mum came with me to the appointment and when we were in the car afterwards I was a bit tearful. I was OK about crying and reminded myself that tears actually let out stress related chemicals from our bodies so it is actually a great healing process.
Rather than jumping straight back into work I took some time to settle myself. Part of being mindful is recognising when you need to take a break to let your mind unwind. Being mindful is also about being kind to yourself.
So, I had a peppermint tea with mum and then set my timer for 20 minutes to let my brain have a little time off before I asked it to settle down to work.
I sat cross legged on the sofa with my back nice and upright, supported by cushions. Being comfortable is really important for meditation. Being upright is the ideal and if you need support to achieve that then no problem.
I put all of my focus on my breath.
To start with my mind drifted a lot. Every time I had focussed on my breath I would suddenly find myself back in the appointment or planning the rest of my day, thinking about work before I had even started.
I stayed patient with myself and tried again. I redirected my attention back to my breath.
By the end of the 20 minutes my mind was settled and focussed, I could keep my attention on my breath for longer and it wandered for much shorter periods even when it did make off on a tangent!
When you are feeling emotional taking some time to let your mind unwind is such a perfect remedy. Even if your mind feels hectic and erratic giving it a little time and patience really will leave you feeling more relaxed. You will experience a more peaceful mind.
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